Uh I feel so 'meh' right now. I'm so confused about the current situation and I really need some reassurance. Just say something, anything; and then I'll know what to do.
Found this remix of Mirrors that was pretty nice! Uh, I wouldn't really call it a remix, more like Mirrors with added percussion?
Tuesday, February 18
Sunday, February 16
Strangers
Been hooked onto this song lately. Thanks to Chae for the recommendation hahaha.
'Don't wanna be a stranger; wanna be the one you need.'
'I can be your world, your life, your lover; all for free.'
'Don't wanna be a stranger; wanna be the one you need.'
'I can be your world, your life, your lover; all for free.'
Saturday, January 25
When it dawns on me
In the day, I try to have fun.
I thought that maybe I'm living a good life.
But.
At night, it dawned upon me.
At night, these monsters within just wouldn't leave me alone.
And I realized I'm actually a deeply unhappy person.
So what's the point when I don't have that one spark in my life?
I thought that maybe I'm living a good life.
But.
At night, it dawned upon me.
At night, these monsters within just wouldn't leave me alone.
And I realized I'm actually a deeply unhappy person.
So what's the point when I don't have that one spark in my life?
Tuesday, December 10
Dogs.
Have people ever wondered why some people love dogs so much? Dogs are such loving, loyal, and adorable animals to begin with. If you've never heard of any real life touching stories that involves dogs, go search up Hachiko, along with a number of other dogs. I just don't know why some people would actually harbor such evil thoughts to actually go and harm such an innocent animal. Do these people know what they're doing? Dogs are not just an animal. They have feelings, too, like humans. Just like humans, they will feel traumatized when they get abused. There will always be a scar left in their hearts. Sometimes dogs bite people who get too close to them, it's because they feel that they should always defend themselves against a human because they think that person will abuse him/her just like how the previous person did. They are just acts of self-defense, not that they're ill-bred or spoilt dogs or whatsoever.
If you took the time to understand a dog, you will know that there is so much more to this tiny animal. It's a being that is full of secrets. There's love. Compassion. Faithfulness. Loyalty. Hatred. Sadness. Anger. Trauma. So much more than these. I just wish some people would understand how much it hurts other people to find out about an abuse incident, because seriously, they are living things. They are not objects for you to manipulate here and there.
They deserve to be loved with all our hearts. They don't deserve to be ill-treated just because they seek for a little affection from a human. Next time, you see a dog, don't scowl at it. Let it approach you, let it sniff you out. The dog is just trying to be friends with you. Treat it nicely, and it will be nice to you. Some people just don't seem to understand this point. "Dogs are a human's best friend." That's such a true saying.
Anyway, it doesn't only apply to dogs, it applies to other animals as well. Cats, rabbits, birds, reptiles, fishes, etc. They deserve fair treatment too. Spend some time with your pet instead of going shopping everyday. They need companion too.
Last but not least, I would like to preach to everyone: ADOPT, DON'T BUY. It hurts just to think where the little puppies from pet shops come from. But, if you keep buying them, puppy mills will keep abusing more dogs to produce more puppies just to sell it to people who patronize pet shops. We have to stop this. Start adopting, and stop buying. All the animals in the animal shelter deserve a second chance to have their happiness. They are still seeking for a new chapter in their lives. And I hope everyone can realize this.
If you took the time to understand a dog, you will know that there is so much more to this tiny animal. It's a being that is full of secrets. There's love. Compassion. Faithfulness. Loyalty. Hatred. Sadness. Anger. Trauma. So much more than these. I just wish some people would understand how much it hurts other people to find out about an abuse incident, because seriously, they are living things. They are not objects for you to manipulate here and there.
They deserve to be loved with all our hearts. They don't deserve to be ill-treated just because they seek for a little affection from a human. Next time, you see a dog, don't scowl at it. Let it approach you, let it sniff you out. The dog is just trying to be friends with you. Treat it nicely, and it will be nice to you. Some people just don't seem to understand this point. "Dogs are a human's best friend." That's such a true saying.
Anyway, it doesn't only apply to dogs, it applies to other animals as well. Cats, rabbits, birds, reptiles, fishes, etc. They deserve fair treatment too. Spend some time with your pet instead of going shopping everyday. They need companion too.
Last but not least, I would like to preach to everyone: ADOPT, DON'T BUY. It hurts just to think where the little puppies from pet shops come from. But, if you keep buying them, puppy mills will keep abusing more dogs to produce more puppies just to sell it to people who patronize pet shops. We have to stop this. Start adopting, and stop buying. All the animals in the animal shelter deserve a second chance to have their happiness. They are still seeking for a new chapter in their lives. And I hope everyone can realize this.
Thursday, September 26
A person I used to know
To any person reading this post, have you ever had a friend/relative that you were so close to, but somehow both of you ended up becoming strangers eventually? Yes, I have had one. I shall not name her, but let's call her Stranger.
Both of us were so close once. We practically grew up together and spent a lot of time together as kids. As we grew up, she stopped trying to keep in contact with me. It's sad to think that both of us would actually grow old as people that are getting more distant from each other rather than two people who are so close that no one can tear us apart.
It's sad to see her care more about her branded goods more than she cares about me.
It's sad to see her care more about her friends that she barely knows than she cares about me.
It's sad to make eye contact with her and see her turning away, not acknowledging my presence, at all.
It's sad to think that she actually looks down on me just because we're not the same.
It's sad to think that we were once so close and just look at us now.
It's sad to see her turn into someone she said she wouldn't become.
Sunday, September 22
Boring
People always seem to forget about me halfway. Be it in real life or virtually. Everytime someone and me starts talking, there seem to be no after episodes. Am I that easy to forget? Or am I just too boring? It's alright, I'll be alright.
Sunday, September 8
:(
I need someone.
Someone whom I can just talk anything about to at times like this. Times like this, I don't even know who to turn to.
Someone who will always be there for me.
Someone who will understand me.
Someone who knows how I feel.
Someone who will not judge.
Just someone, somewhere.
I need you right now, right here.
Someone whom I can just talk anything about to at times like this. Times like this, I don't even know who to turn to.
Someone who will always be there for me.
Someone who will understand me.
Someone who knows how I feel.
Someone who will not judge.
Just someone, somewhere.
I need you right now, right here.
Sunday, August 4
Living Like A Dream
Songs like these make my heart flutter. Not those shitty songs I hear on the shitty radios nowadays.
Friday, August 2
Sunday, June 23
梦想不会逃走，逃走的往往只是自己。
每个人面临自己的某种恐惧时，都会对自己说，“算了算了，还是不要去做好了。” 为什么我会知道呢？因为我就是其中一位。我有许多害怕的事情。
我最害怕的就是去尝试对我来说是新鲜的东西。譬如说是云霄飞车啦，等等。我有惧高症，也很怕坐在开得很快的车子上。我的家人，我的朋友，和我的某些亲戚都说，怎么长那么大了还这么害怕这些小小的东西？我哪知道啊。每个人一生出来本来就有敢做，和不敢做的事情，你说不是吗？
其实，当追逐着自己梦想的时候，会不断地遇到各种各样大同小异的挫折和绊脚石；途中也会遇到自己有所恐惧的事情。这是难免的。。。没有一条路是一帆风顺的。如果真是如此的话，那么这就代表你已经偏远你自己的目标了。
所谓：世上无难事，只怕有心人。只要你有那个心去做的话，就一定能够达成你的目标。就算路途有多艰难，有多么的不顺，只要有决心，就一定做得到。这就是我读了一本宥胜写的书，得到的启发。
你的恐惧是无法避免的，因为总有一天你还是得面对它们，对吧？就是要克服这些困难，这些恐惧，才能达到自己的梦想与目标，不是吗？如果不想在自己的人生里留下任何遗憾的话，那么，我们就将面对这些事实。
我呢，我的梦想就和宥胜非常的相同。那就是走遍世界各地的每一个角落。那在这个梦想的途中，有着许多大大小小的问题。最大的问题应该就是金钱上的问题了吧。我之前说过，我很害怕尝试新的东西。那是因为我会觉得没有安全感，觉得随时都会发生不好的事似的。人们都是往自己觉得是安全的道路上，一直走着，一直走着；然后一碰到不熟悉的环境时，就会觉得害怕，觉得不想再走下去了。人们就会想走回以前那安全又熟悉的道路上。我猜，每个人都是这个样子的吧。
就拿个比例来说。一位小男孩，他想当一名专业的摩托车骑士。当他在高中的时候，他的一位击友因骑了摩托车而出车祸，不幸去世了；而他却亲眼目睹了这一切。自从那天起，他再也不敢骑摩托车了。因为当他一骑上去时，就会不自觉的想起当天发生的车祸。他怎么忘也忘不了。一方面是怕再度想起他的好朋友，另一方面是害怕再度骑摩托车，因为他怕类似的事情也会发生在他的身上。他非常热爱摩托车，但因为这两种因素，伤口不断的隐隐作痛。他心想，“我应该再也不会骑摩托车了吧。。。”
男孩应该怎么做呢？他应该停止步伐，再也不骑摩托车了吗？还是，他应该勇敢地面对一切，面对一切的问题，然后继续追逐梦想？如果男孩不想在他的人生留下任何遗憾的话，他就应该继续追逐他的梦想。面对所有的问题，然后一直，一直地向前冲。
我，很害怕和不认识的人沟通。我以前打工的时候，总是带着恐惧去度过每一天。我的第一份工大多数需要和不认识的人询问资料。我的第二份工就是在酒店的餐厅打工。每天都必须和世界各地的旅客接触与沟通。虽然我喜欢与人沟通和接触，但是终究还是会害怕。我是一个非常慢熟的人。我不会一下子就和每个人交谈得很像二十年没见的老朋友一样。
直到现在，我还是很害怕与陌生人沟通与接触。第一次见到我的人大概会觉得我是个怪咖吧。会觉得我过度安静，过度保守。但是我就是这个样子，有什么办法呢？我也不想这个样子啊。
但是，我想要克服这一切。为了我的人生目标和梦想，我一定要克服所有的难关和各式各样的恐惧。虽然现在的我没办法保证一下子就能克服所有的问题，但我相信，不管需要多少的时间，我一定会克服一切，然后勇敢的追寻我的梦想。只要有心，就一定能做到。不管需要多少勇气，多少力气，我都想达到我的人生梦想。我不知道我这篇日记有没有半点道理，但这就是我的心里话。
碰到挫折跌倒的话，就站起来啊。再跌的话，就再一次站起来。一直，一直站起来。有着‘永不放弃’的态度能够帮助人类很多哦。如果你那么轻易地放弃此梦的话，那么，你对它就不是真心的了。真正的梦想会让你不断，不断地继续追逐，继续热血，不断努力地为它奋斗下去。
谢谢宥胜开导了我，给予我勇气说出了这些话。我一定会努力争取我要做到的事。从今天起，大家开始热血吧！
“梦想要与现实结合，现实要有梦想存在，否则，就是幻想。” - 宥胜。
Saturday, June 15
Jem
Hey.
So me and my third brother went to Jem (the mall at Jurong East) for our dinner tonight. As all of you know, it's the official opening of Jem today! So yeah. There were a lot of restaurants but all of them were pretty much crowded as fuck so we decided to try out this restaurant. (Which didn't look as crowded as others) I shan't name this place, but I'll give a hint. It starts with an alphabet from M-P. Okay, so that's up to you guys to decide which restaurant is it! (He he he he.)
Yep. So obviously I'm gonna rant about a couple of things here.
Me and my brother were standing outside this "place" and waiting to be seated. Yes, we were seated afterwards. A table that was outdoors. But that was alright because there was a fan right above our heads so it was pretty cooling. Okay. We were given ice water and menus. And then it was time to order. Yup.
Firstly, we ordered these 2 main courses. "Oh, it's not available.", the waitress said. Never mind, me and my brother decided to check out the menu once again. And then we decided on another 2 courses. The waitress said okay. Afterwards, she came back and said it's not available. What I want to stress upon is that, the menu did not have a lot of choices by itself, and then so many things were unavailable. Why not just sell water instead? I think at least the customers would not be so disappointed in this "place". Later we ordered and ordered and finally my brother just told the waitress, "Okay, tell me what dishes are available on this menu." Then guess what? She just kind of roughly pointed to 2 courses and said that they weren't bad. I'm not an idiot. This is your first day working here and you said it isn't bad. Bitch please, I bet you haven't even seen it before. So my brother decided to give this place another chance and just ordered 2 dishes that were available and YES for fuck's sake they were REALLY available. So far so bad.
Secondly, when our courses arrived, it looked, um, okay how should I put this, it looked pretty appetizing. (Never judge a book by its cover) We were going to dig in and realized the waitress didn't give us our cutlery/serviettes yet. My brother raised his hand to signal the waitress to come over but she didn't. There were so many servers over there yet none of them had the courtesy to just ask what we wanted. Okay. So I decided to just walk up to the sidestation by myself and get my own cutlery and serviettes for me and my brother. Wow. A place that looks so fancy but so NOT fancy. You get me?
Thirdly, the food tasted like crap. It was cold as hell and the vegetables looked like they were harvested right from the wild grass patch outside of the mall. That was just how they looked like AND tasted like. Mine was alright compared to my brother's. His meat tasted like cardboard. I mean, cardboard might have tasted slightly better than the meat he ordered. It was that bad. The butter rice was tasteless as well I don't even know how I should put it. God.
Fourthly, I assume the man who seated us down was the host. So we were seated down beside this family, and suddenly the host just sat down at the table beside us and started chit chatting away. I mean, for the love of god shouldn't you be helping the other servers or something instead of just chit chatting away? Even if that table was filled with your friends you can't... Can't just do this, homedawg. What the actual fuck. Also, when we raised our hands to ask for cutlery he obviously saw it but of course he still chit chatted away. Fuck you.
Fifthly, when we decided to settle the bill, my brother didn't have enough cash on him so he used his card. Guess what? The card machine broke down. Fabulous. *claps sarcastically* This couldn't have been a better experience for my and my brother.
After we left the place, we were literally laughing. I haven't been to a place that was as ridiculous as this place. I have worked in the F&B industry before and trust me, my attitude was a lot better than the people who worked there for fuck's sake.
I will never ever patronize that shop again even if you pay me to do so (actually it depends on how much you're willing to pay me because I really don't want to eat food that tastes like cardboard anymore lol). This place can kiss my ass. *smacks my butt*
So me and my third brother went to Jem (the mall at Jurong East) for our dinner tonight. As all of you know, it's the official opening of Jem today! So yeah. There were a lot of restaurants but all of them were pretty much crowded as fuck so we decided to try out this restaurant. (Which didn't look as crowded as others) I shan't name this place, but I'll give a hint. It starts with an alphabet from M-P. Okay, so that's up to you guys to decide which restaurant is it! (He he he he.)
Yep. So obviously I'm gonna rant about a couple of things here.
Me and my brother were standing outside this "place" and waiting to be seated. Yes, we were seated afterwards. A table that was outdoors. But that was alright because there was a fan right above our heads so it was pretty cooling. Okay. We were given ice water and menus. And then it was time to order. Yup.
Firstly, we ordered these 2 main courses. "Oh, it's not available.", the waitress said. Never mind, me and my brother decided to check out the menu once again. And then we decided on another 2 courses. The waitress said okay. Afterwards, she came back and said it's not available. What I want to stress upon is that, the menu did not have a lot of choices by itself, and then so many things were unavailable. Why not just sell water instead? I think at least the customers would not be so disappointed in this "place". Later we ordered and ordered and finally my brother just told the waitress, "Okay, tell me what dishes are available on this menu." Then guess what? She just kind of roughly pointed to 2 courses and said that they weren't bad. I'm not an idiot. This is your first day working here and you said it isn't bad. Bitch please, I bet you haven't even seen it before. So my brother decided to give this place another chance and just ordered 2 dishes that were available and YES for fuck's sake they were REALLY available. So far so bad.
Secondly, when our courses arrived, it looked, um, okay how should I put this, it looked pretty appetizing. (Never judge a book by its cover) We were going to dig in and realized the waitress didn't give us our cutlery/serviettes yet. My brother raised his hand to signal the waitress to come over but she didn't. There were so many servers over there yet none of them had the courtesy to just ask what we wanted. Okay. So I decided to just walk up to the sidestation by myself and get my own cutlery and serviettes for me and my brother. Wow. A place that looks so fancy but so NOT fancy. You get me?
Thirdly, the food tasted like crap. It was cold as hell and the vegetables looked like they were harvested right from the wild grass patch outside of the mall. That was just how they looked like AND tasted like. Mine was alright compared to my brother's. His meat tasted like cardboard. I mean, cardboard might have tasted slightly better than the meat he ordered. It was that bad. The butter rice was tasteless as well I don't even know how I should put it. God.
Fourthly, I assume the man who seated us down was the host. So we were seated down beside this family, and suddenly the host just sat down at the table beside us and started chit chatting away. I mean, for the love of god shouldn't you be helping the other servers or something instead of just chit chatting away? Even if that table was filled with your friends you can't... Can't just do this, homedawg. What the actual fuck. Also, when we raised our hands to ask for cutlery he obviously saw it but of course he still chit chatted away. Fuck you.
Fifthly, when we decided to settle the bill, my brother didn't have enough cash on him so he used his card. Guess what? The card machine broke down. Fabulous. *claps sarcastically* This couldn't have been a better experience for my and my brother.
After we left the place, we were literally laughing. I haven't been to a place that was as ridiculous as this place. I have worked in the F&B industry before and trust me, my attitude was a lot better than the people who worked there for fuck's sake.
I will never ever patronize that shop again even if you pay me to do so (actually it depends on how much you're willing to pay me because I really don't want to eat food that tastes like cardboard anymore lol). This place can kiss my ass. *smacks my butt*
Sunday, June 9
Happy 31st birthday, Chris x
HAPPY B'DAY TO THE LOVELIEST CHRIS WANG 宥胜！！！！
Okay yeah so this post is entirely about him, since he's my ultimate fave right now. HAHAHA. Oh my, just look at that face. I think I have a fetish for guys with kinda small eyes and a cute smile. WELL, WHO DOESN'T LOVE THAT? DUH.
Not forgetting to mention he's super cute, super friendly, super kind, and everything about him is superb. He helps the local orphanages a lot, let's just say that says a lot about him. :')
ALSO NOT FORGETTING TO MENTION HE HAS AN AWESOME BODAYE. I think I might just faint outta excessive blood loss. *faints*
Okay, I screenshot-ed this from Funshion, cuz the way he smiled here is so cute. LMAO. GAAAAAH. I have officially fell into the river of luv.
Thanks to The Fierce Wife, I got to know him :') God bless The Fierce Wife.
What I want to say to Chris is that: I will always continue supporting your dramas and your upcoming albums! It was such a pity that I didn't know you came to Singapore in April this year. If not, I would definitely be there :'( So please come back to Singapore soon, please please please please? I'll bring the album I bought for you to sign it. Hehehehe. I LOVE CHU SO MUCH. xxxx
Hope today was a fantabulous day for you, and you had loads of fun on your 31st birthday! Honestly he doesn't look like he's 31. He looks like he's about... I don't know, ehm, around 25? HAHAHA. Okay. I love you. Bye. :') x
Tuesday, May 21
Purpose
Just now, I was reading Chris Wang's blog and one of his most recent posts he was talking about how he became so upset lately because he kind of lost his purpose in life. He was saying how he was getting more unhappy lately because he had strayed away from his goals and dreams in life. Now he's happy again because a group of adventurers inspired him to keep doing what he likes: which are travelling around the world and go on adventures and find out things that he didn't know before. His blog post made me ponder about my purpose in life too.
Some moments I think to myself, what do I want in life? I seriously do not know either. I don't want to just study my ass off, find a job, and whatever. That's not what I want to do. I also wanna be like Chris. My dreams are similar to his. I also wanna travel around the world and find out about things that I didn't know before. I wanna travel to places which have fascinated me since forever.
Places like Europe, America and Japan are the places that I want to go to the most. I want to visit the Northern and Southern lights in Europe. I want to see the cherry blossoms blooming in Japan. I wanna go to America and visit everything. This is my dream: to travel around the world like Chris.
I'm gonna save up lots of money because you know what? I'm going to fulfill my lifelong dream, which is travel around the whole world.
Thanks to Chris, he made my rusty dream resurface again. I hope he keeps doing what he loves too and don't ever let anyone hold him back. :') I love him so much, gosh.
Some moments I think to myself, what do I want in life? I seriously do not know either. I don't want to just study my ass off, find a job, and whatever. That's not what I want to do. I also wanna be like Chris. My dreams are similar to his. I also wanna travel around the world and find out about things that I didn't know before. I wanna travel to places which have fascinated me since forever.
Places like Europe, America and Japan are the places that I want to go to the most. I want to visit the Northern and Southern lights in Europe. I want to see the cherry blossoms blooming in Japan. I wanna go to America and visit everything. This is my dream: to travel around the world like Chris.
I'm gonna save up lots of money because you know what? I'm going to fulfill my lifelong dream, which is travel around the whole world.
Thanks to Chris, he made my rusty dream resurface again. I hope he keeps doing what he loves too and don't ever let anyone hold him back. :') I love him so much, gosh.
Thursday, May 16
Quiz time!
1. Are looks important in a relationship?
- To be honest, they do matter because people are judgmental beings. Initially, you notice a person because of their appearance. But as time goes by in a relationship, you will gradually stop caring for they are on the outside, but how they are on the inside.
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
- I wouldn't know because I haven't been in a relationship before, hahahaha.
3. Are you a virgin?
- What do you think?
4. Are you in a relationship?
- Nope.
5. Are you in love?
- I might be. OH, and I'm in love with a lot of male celebrities. Do they count too?
6. Are you single this year?
- Yep.
7. Can you commit to one person?
- Why not? A person who cannot commit to one person does not deserve to have a relationship, at all.
8. Describe your crush.
- I don't know if he's considered as a crush but here goes nothing. He's quite an outgoing person, but he's not loud. In fact, he's kind of shy and I find that really cute.
9. Describe your perfect mate.
- Have a sense of humor, kinda romantic, have some common interests as me, and meh, I don't know. LOL. I really love blue/green eyes (real ones, not those alien wannabes)
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Yup.
11. Do you ever want to get married?
- Yeah, of course!!!
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
- I need time, but I might not forgive that person. If it's someone important to me, I might forgive him/her.
13. Do you get jealous easily?
- I guess so.
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- Does Colton Haynes, Tyler Posey, and Stephen Amell count?
15. Do you have any piercings?
- Yup. On my earlobes.
16. Do you have any tattoos?
- Nope.
17. Do you like kissing in public?
- Haven't done that, I don't know.
20. Do you shower every day?
- Duh!
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- I don't know.
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- I don't know. Haha
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- Duh....
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- Nope.
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
- Maybe yes? HAHAHA I don't know homedawg.
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- Yep.
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
- Yeha. Hahaha
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
- Never been in a relationship.
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
- Same answer as the above question.
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
- NO!
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
- Yup, of course.
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
- Yes.
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
- No.
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
- No.
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- No.
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
- No.
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- No.
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- Yeah.
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- Yup.
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
-Yup. Hahaha.
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
- Whatchu think brah?
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
- Never before. -.-
43. How long was your longest relationship?
- N.A.
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
- None.
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?
- N.A.
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
- N.A.
47. How old are you?
- 18 this year.
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- I'd probably be like, "Oh", and cry inside. Haha
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
- Ask me again when I have a boyfriend.
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
- Never had one, but I would see what kinda mistakes he made first.
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
- Right now, no.
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
- Yes. Not telling.
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- Right now no but in the past yes.
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
- Yup.
55. Share a relationship story.
- N.A.
56. State 8 facts about your body.
- 5'6, kinda tanned, meaty (haha), long arms, um that's it, I don't know anything else.
57. Things you want to say to an ex.
- No ex.
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
- Be sincere, be lovely, I don't know. Hahaha
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
- Err-one knows.
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
- N.A.
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
- Face. I mean, everyone notices that first, right?
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
- I seriously don't know. Wow, this quiz is getting kinky.
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
- Um, having sex? LOL. Oh, and it has to be with someone I love.
64. What is your definition of cheating?
- A scumbag, a dweeb, a cunt, every possible name.
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
- WUT
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
- WUT x2
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
- I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW.
68. What is your sexual orientation?
- 200% straight.
69. What turns you off?
- Stuck up guys who think every girl should fall in love with him. Guys who overdress like they're going for fashion show everyday. Guys who smoke. Seriously, the third one is the worst. I hate talking to people who have fucking smoky breath.
70. What turns you on?
- Blue/green eyes, a nice voice, a sexy and cute (crooked) smile, nice hair, cute laughter, yeah. And a lot more.
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
- N.A.
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
- I DON'T KNOW YOU NAWTY QUIZ. LOL
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
- A lot but I'll just list any one of them right now. Personally I feel when guys write handwritten love letters to girls it's super duper sweet.
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
- Hmm, (seriously and honestly), a cute face.
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
- I don't even know. Wow, that's sad
76. What’s the sweetest thing you've ever done for someone?
- I forgot.
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
- As long as you're comfortable with the difference, it's okay. But don't overdo it and look like you're dating your father or your infant nephew. For me, I think I would prefer guys who are the same age as me or older than me by a maximum of about 5 to 6 years.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
- I don't know O_O
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
- I don't really remember.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- On my mom's birthday on the 5th of this month. (DUH, I told my mom, of course.)
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
- Logan Lerman, Colton Haynes, Stephen Amell, Chris Wang, and Nick Santino.
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
- My mom, on her birthday.
83. Who was your first kiss with?
- My siblings, hahahaha.
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
- N.A.
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
- Depends. If I fell in love with him without me knowing it, then yes, it's possible.
- To be honest, they do matter because people are judgmental beings. Initially, you notice a person because of their appearance. But as time goes by in a relationship, you will gradually stop caring for they are on the outside, but how they are on the inside.
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
- I wouldn't know because I haven't been in a relationship before, hahahaha.
3. Are you a virgin?
- What do you think?
4. Are you in a relationship?
- Nope.
5. Are you in love?
- I might be. OH, and I'm in love with a lot of male celebrities. Do they count too?
6. Are you single this year?
- Yep.
7. Can you commit to one person?
- Why not? A person who cannot commit to one person does not deserve to have a relationship, at all.
8. Describe your crush.
- I don't know if he's considered as a crush but here goes nothing. He's quite an outgoing person, but he's not loud. In fact, he's kind of shy and I find that really cute.
9. Describe your perfect mate.
- Have a sense of humor, kinda romantic, have some common interests as me, and meh, I don't know. LOL. I really love blue/green eyes (real ones, not those alien wannabes)
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Yup.
11. Do you ever want to get married?
- Yeah, of course!!!
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
- I need time, but I might not forgive that person. If it's someone important to me, I might forgive him/her.
13. Do you get jealous easily?
- I guess so.
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- Does Colton Haynes, Tyler Posey, and Stephen Amell count?
15. Do you have any piercings?
- Yup. On my earlobes.
16. Do you have any tattoos?
- Nope.
17. Do you like kissing in public?
- Haven't done that, I don't know.
20. Do you shower every day?
- Duh!
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- I don't know.
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- I don't know. Haha
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- Duh....
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- Nope.
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
- Maybe yes? HAHAHA I don't know homedawg.
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- Yep.
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
- Yeha. Hahaha
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
- Never been in a relationship.
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
- Same answer as the above question.
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
- NO!
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
- Yup, of course.
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
- Yes.
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
- No.
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
- No.
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- No.
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
- No.
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- No.
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- Yeah.
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- Yup.
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
-Yup. Hahaha.
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
- Whatchu think brah?
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
- Never before. -.-
43. How long was your longest relationship?
- N.A.
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
- None.
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?
- N.A.
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
- N.A.
47. How old are you?
- 18 this year.
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- I'd probably be like, "Oh", and cry inside. Haha
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
- Ask me again when I have a boyfriend.
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
- Never had one, but I would see what kinda mistakes he made first.
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
- Right now, no.
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
- Yes. Not telling.
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- Right now no but in the past yes.
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
- Yup.
55. Share a relationship story.
- N.A.
56. State 8 facts about your body.
- 5'6, kinda tanned, meaty (haha), long arms, um that's it, I don't know anything else.
57. Things you want to say to an ex.
- No ex.
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
- Be sincere, be lovely, I don't know. Hahaha
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
- Err-one knows.
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
- N.A.
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
- Face. I mean, everyone notices that first, right?
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
- I seriously don't know. Wow, this quiz is getting kinky.
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
- Um, having sex? LOL. Oh, and it has to be with someone I love.
64. What is your definition of cheating?
- A scumbag, a dweeb, a cunt, every possible name.
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
- WUT
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
- WUT x2
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
- I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW.
68. What is your sexual orientation?
- 200% straight.
69. What turns you off?
- Stuck up guys who think every girl should fall in love with him. Guys who overdress like they're going for fashion show everyday. Guys who smoke. Seriously, the third one is the worst. I hate talking to people who have fucking smoky breath.
70. What turns you on?
- Blue/green eyes, a nice voice, a sexy and cute (crooked) smile, nice hair, cute laughter, yeah. And a lot more.
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
- N.A.
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
- I DON'T KNOW YOU NAWTY QUIZ. LOL
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
- A lot but I'll just list any one of them right now. Personally I feel when guys write handwritten love letters to girls it's super duper sweet.
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
- Hmm, (seriously and honestly), a cute face.
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
- I don't even know. Wow, that's sad
76. What’s the sweetest thing you've ever done for someone?
- I forgot.
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
- As long as you're comfortable with the difference, it's okay. But don't overdo it and look like you're dating your father or your infant nephew. For me, I think I would prefer guys who are the same age as me or older than me by a maximum of about 5 to 6 years.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
- I don't know O_O
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
- I don't really remember.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- On my mom's birthday on the 5th of this month. (DUH, I told my mom, of course.)
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
- Logan Lerman, Colton Haynes, Stephen Amell, Chris Wang, and Nick Santino.
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
- My mom, on her birthday.
83. Who was your first kiss with?
- My siblings, hahahaha.
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
- N.A.
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
- Depends. If I fell in love with him without me knowing it, then yes, it's possible.
Saturday, May 11
Post-depression
I broke down again before going to bed last night. They just mean so much to me.
And... I woke up with swollen eyes this morning.
Anyway, happy advanced Mothers' Day to every awesome mother out there. Know that your children appreciate you a lot, but they just don't show it.
I want to thank my mother for everything she did for my whole life. She was always there for me when I needed her. I love you so much, mom. :)
And... I woke up with swollen eyes this morning.
Anyway, happy advanced Mothers' Day to every awesome mother out there. Know that your children appreciate you a lot, but they just don't show it.
I want to thank my mother for everything she did for my whole life. She was always there for me when I needed her. I love you so much, mom. :)
Friday, May 10
Forever a Rocketeer
Today while on the bus to school, I had this uncanny feeling when I saw someone tweet about A Rocket To The Moon. Long story short, A Rocket To The Moon officially broke up today. I couldn't believe it. I didn't even know this day would come. Besides, they only released their Wild and Free album back in late March. I just couldn't believe it. I instantly had this empty feeling in my heart. They had been my ultimate favorite band since 2010. And now... I don't know what to feel anymore. It's like something really precious was taken away from me, yet I don't feel extreme sadness. I just feel empty. They have been a part of my life ever since the day I got to know them. I really wanna just scream it all out to someone or somewhere but instead I decided to just bottle it up in my heart until I have the chance to spill it all out on my blog tonight.
When I went to read what Nick had to say on his Twitter: he said to look out for an important announcement on their official website. When he posted that tweet I was asleep. The guys came up with this on their official website... God. How could this have happened.
When I went to read what Nick had to say on his Twitter: he said to look out for an important announcement on their official website. When he posted that tweet I was asleep. The guys came up with this on their official website... God. How could this have happened.
The moment I reached school, I didn't talk to anyone. I just stood there in a daze while thinking about my ultimate favorite band in the whole wide world. Now that precious something was taken away from me. I was at a loss for words. I just wanted to go home and bawl my organs out. While I was still on the bus to school, I tweeted, "This isn't happening.". My friend asked me what I meant by that when I reached school. Suddenly I was flushed with all my emotions and I immediately shook my head and looked away. Tears almost welled up in my eyes but I held it in. I didn't want to show it to anyone.
Just now, when I was listening to their songs again, I really couldn't help it, so I broke down. You have no idea how much A Rocket To The Moon means to me. (Damn, I'm starting to cry again.) I never thought I would have to see this day coming but here it is, one of the worst days of my life, 10/5/2013. The day A Rocket To The Moon split up forever.
As sad as I can get, this was the guys' decisions. I do respect their decisions if this is what they really want for the best. But I'm really, really devastated that I can never get to see them, EVER, in my whole life. I was holding onto that measly possibility of hope of them coming to Singapore for a concert but now that little hope is crushed into a million tiny shards. Now I will never get to see them, EVER, in my whole freaking life.
Yesterday felt like the first day that I stumbled upon their song in the related videos on YouTube back in 2010. I remembered I was listening to I'll Be Your Sunset.
At first I really didn't think the song was that nice but I just kept on checking them out. Little did I know they turned out to be my ultimate favorite band in the whole wide world. I was continuously listening to their songs everyday since then. Whole day, even before I went to bed, I listened to them until I started to fall asleep. They were the main sources of my happiness, the main sources of my motivations and inspirations. I started to fall in love with the band more and more each day.
They were all I thought about each day, everyday. I sang their songs as though as it were my own concert every day in the shower. I hum their songs when I'm feeling happy, when I'm feeling down, and when I'm feeling mad. They were just that influential to me.
No matter what Nick, Halvo, Andrew, and Justin decides to do, I'll always, always, support them from the bottom of my heart. All the best in your futures and everything that you do. Just remember that there's this fan from Singapore who loves you guys with all her heart and will always support you guys no matter what.
Today's the last day which I will be buying A Rocket To The Moon's merchandise. I just ordered the Wild and Free album, a hoodie, and a t-shirt, in addition to my On Your Side album, the bracelet, and another t-shirt.
I'll always carry A Rocket To The Moon in my heart.
You and I, we, will always be young, wild, and free.
I love them too much to accept this so quickly. I need time. I really need time..
Saturday, May 4
Quick update
Should I call this a quick update? Man, I ain't too sure about that. Bahahahah. Anyway, here goes nothing. Well...... I haven't updated in like 4 months so I don't really know where to start off with. Um. In February I didn't do much I guess, because exams ended around the 20th so I guess I was probably lazing around until the day I had to leave for Tianjin City in China. Fyi, I went to China from 4th of March to 8th of April. Not going to go into details about the study trip but you just gotta know it was pretty dang fun. I had my first snow experience over there and it was kinda amazing. Well, if Singapore had an additional 4 seasons on top of the why-Singapore-is-awesome list, I think it would be beyond perfect. Hahahaha. As much as I love Singapore, I still cannot stand the weather that we have over here. The weather over here is simply outrageous. When you don't need the wind, it comes. When you need the god damn wind, it doesn't come. Mind = blown.
Oh, after I came back from the Tianjin City trip, I pretty much lazed around until we had to return to school on the 15th. My timetable for this semester is pretty much what you call "slacking". Only 4 modules to take care of since we got rid of 2 during the study trip.
Not going to go into details about school because it is as boring as ever. Well, all I can say right now is that I really wish I was somewhere else right now. Preferably somewhere I've never been to before, like America, Maldives, or places like that. Although I said I love Singapore, it still gets a little boring sometimes.
Sometimes I wish there were more excitements in my life. Things I can look forward to everyday. But there's nothing. So I can say I'm not actually really satisfied with my life right now. I'd probably give it a 5 or 6 out of 10. I really need a looooooooong getaway from Singapore. I need that spark in my life again. There are so many places that I want to belong to other than here.
Oh, after I came back from the Tianjin City trip, I pretty much lazed around until we had to return to school on the 15th. My timetable for this semester is pretty much what you call "slacking". Only 4 modules to take care of since we got rid of 2 during the study trip.
Not going to go into details about school because it is as boring as ever. Well, all I can say right now is that I really wish I was somewhere else right now. Preferably somewhere I've never been to before, like America, Maldives, or places like that. Although I said I love Singapore, it still gets a little boring sometimes.
Sometimes I wish there were more excitements in my life. Things I can look forward to everyday. But there's nothing. So I can say I'm not actually really satisfied with my life right now. I'd probably give it a 5 or 6 out of 10. I really need a looooooooong getaway from Singapore. I need that spark in my life again. There are so many places that I want to belong to other than here.
Saturday, January 26
Monday, December 24
Update
Random update about what I did these few weeks. Hahaha. Okay. So I had my exams 2 weeks ago and I'm having my term break right now. (2 weeks) One week's over, did nothing much, but I guess this week is more eventful for me (or should I say everyone?) since it's Christmas week. This Wednesday I'm gonna go up to my classmate's house to celebrate Christmas and have a secret gift exchange and stuff. Also, I started on a new book which I bought over the last weekend which is called Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver. So far it's pretty good, I started on the book just now and read for about 50 or so pages straight. Hahaha. So I'm gonna go back to school next week, it sucks, we get our results back, I hope they're good. This is a boring update I know, byeeee.
Tuesday, November 20
Emblem3
Hey guys! I have a new guilty pleasure. And I am proud to announce that they're Emblem3.
Not gonna lie but I only got to know them thru X Factor, and I'm shore glad I did! They're really cool and amazing and awesome. Their names are: Wesley Stromberg, Keaton Stromberg, (they're brothers) and Drew Chadwick.
My ultimate fave would definitely be Keaton Stromberg. Man, I mean just look at that face. He's so adorable! And I can't believe he's a year younger than me! He looks and acts really mature. God. He's literally the definition of 'perfection'.
Btw, this is the song that they performed for their audition on X Factor, and I freakin' love it. Listen to it, you won't regret it! xxxx
The second video's their audition! Fast forward to 4:14 to see them perform on stage ahahah. x Love these lads so much x
Not gonna lie but I only got to know them thru X Factor, and I'm shore glad I did! They're really cool and amazing and awesome. Their names are: Wesley Stromberg, Keaton Stromberg, (they're brothers) and Drew Chadwick.
My ultimate fave would definitely be Keaton Stromberg. Man, I mean just look at that face. He's so adorable! And I can't believe he's a year younger than me! He looks and acts really mature. God. He's literally the definition of 'perfection'.
Btw, this is the song that they performed for their audition on X Factor, and I freakin' love it. Listen to it, you won't regret it! xxxx
An Emblem since 20/11/12 x
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